I remember moments....of trust, of love, of laughter, shared grief.....
Can I really be such a monster? How can I remember joy ? Did I loose my daughter. Will she ever come back before its to late ? What can make someone misplace so many memories of goodness and only see pain where she looks ? After 28 years how can she not see the real person that I am ?
How can she not know who we have always been ...together...as a family...
Who remembers the wrong past ? She doesn't fear the future that I see... She has no CARE for what I see coming.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
In an earlyer blogg I mentioned that my daughter thinks of me as "vile and incompetent".
Don't let your imagination get out of control !!! I haven't done anything like "murder" or do
anything perverted with a icon of Christ !! No No. If you listen to her tell it...I'm just bad !
Somedays she probably isn't even sure why, she just knows it to be true !
Right now, today, she has a reason to be mad at me. But I think she has blown things out of proportion. Her husband isn't as harsh !! I feel sorry for the spot he is in!!
Yep.....stuck between an OLD BITCH and a YOUNG BITCH . (love ya chris...mean it)
Don't let your imagination get out of control !!! I haven't done anything like "murder" or do
anything perverted with a icon of Christ !! No No. If you listen to her tell it...I'm just bad !
Somedays she probably isn't even sure why, she just knows it to be true !
Right now, today, she has a reason to be mad at me. But I think she has blown things out of proportion. Her husband isn't as harsh !! I feel sorry for the spot he is in!!
Yep.....stuck between an OLD BITCH and a YOUNG BITCH . (love ya chris...mean it)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Feeling Harsh Today
Everyday I get up in the morning and wonder, what should I worry about the MOST??
Hmmmm, lets see...
1 Money I owe the IRS ?
2 Not " will I loose my house" but when?
3 How large a bag of dog food should I get this week?
4 Is it just stress...or am I suffering from CRS syndrom?
5 Does my grand-daughter miss me less than last month?
6 Does my grand-son remember how much fun I'am?
7 How many days could I live without electricity?
8 Will I ever meet Mr. Right?
9 At 55 years, do I even care?
10 Does my daughter have a Bi Polar disorder?
11 Or, is she just mean?
12 Or does she have a valid reason not to love her mother?
13 Do I have a head-ache?
14 Why didn't my mother give me the name 'MURPHY" for my middle name?
15 Will I have enough money for Chris next month?
16 Can I eat less?
17 Where the hell are all these wrinkels coming from?
18 Am I psychic?
19 How long do the effects of being struck by lightning last?
20 If I eat less...will Casey get fatter?
Well I better get all the way out of bed now and start this new, lovely day!!!!
Hmmmm, lets see...
1 Money I owe the IRS ?
2 Not " will I loose my house" but when?
3 How large a bag of dog food should I get this week?
4 Is it just stress...or am I suffering from CRS syndrom?
5 Does my grand-daughter miss me less than last month?
6 Does my grand-son remember how much fun I'am?
7 How many days could I live without electricity?
8 Will I ever meet Mr. Right?
9 At 55 years, do I even care?
10 Does my daughter have a Bi Polar disorder?
11 Or, is she just mean?
12 Or does she have a valid reason not to love her mother?
13 Do I have a head-ache?
14 Why didn't my mother give me the name 'MURPHY" for my middle name?
15 Will I have enough money for Chris next month?
16 Can I eat less?
17 Where the hell are all these wrinkels coming from?
18 Am I psychic?
19 How long do the effects of being struck by lightning last?
20 If I eat less...will Casey get fatter?
Well I better get all the way out of bed now and start this new, lovely day!!!!
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